Reminder

Please stop going onto social media like Instagram and make yourself feel like shit.

Please. Just. Stop.

I've never hated being so alone until now. It's frustrating how Instagram used used to be a happy place for me, where I would be glad to be updated about other's lives now fills me with nothing but envy and frustration. Stop telling me how happy you are in a relationship cause it's making me delusional. It's making me think that that is all I want in life, to be happy in a relationship. It's telling me that I can't be happy being single cause I get lonely too often and it's telling me that this life sucks.

I don't want that. I don't want to feel miserable and Instgram, you have to stop making me feel that way. You have to stop showing me how happy my friends are in a relationship and how fucking single as fuck I am. You have to stop.

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