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Well, well.
I'm really bored right now and I really feel like typing something.
So might as well right?
I know, it's kind of late to start a blog in the middle of June but hey!
Universities starts school in August!
Nothing's ever too late.
Not too sure about posting frequently here but I do need a space.
Like an alone space for me to type my thoughts out instead of spamming them on Twitter.
There's just way too much on Twitter.
I mean, what's the point of me tweeting all the tweets about Justin there?
Not like he's going to read them & even if he really does...
" Nothing is the same anymore " and this time its true.
It has been years since we last met..okay, maybe not met but last talk.
So many years but everything is still so clear like it happened yesterday.
Maybe it's because I think about them VERY frequently.
I keep reminding myself about you, reminding myself how I can't handle relationships.
Keep torturing myself with the thoughts of you hoping that it might change something...
I guess that's kind of useless.
I mean, look at me now.
Where am I?
Still that piece of horrible shit that can't handle any relations or friendship.
That bitch who's jealous about anything and everything.
I'm kind of sick of all these thinking.
Perhaps I should just stop wondering how it'll be like if I just admitted my feelings for you.
Right from the very start.
On a side note, I've always felt like I don't deserve anything in life that's given to me.
( well, it still stands true to a certain extend but...let's just ignore it for the moment? )
Like if I ever have a good week, a horrible one would come soon.
The better the day gets, the more afraid I am.
Cause I know for every action, there will be an equal and opposite reaction.
This Newton's Law is like the core belief of my life.
With that said..
Yes, I do believe in Karma &
No, I don't believe that someone will lead a good life for a long period of time.
So whenever I get very good days, I feel really really blessed but afraid at the same time.
Cause I know having such good days means that the bad ones will be horrible and I can never hide from it.
No matter how much I wish I could avoid it, it'll still come to me.
So nowadays, if I ever get a bad day, I just accept it.
Knowing that once those bad days are over, the good ones will be here.
That's how I keep myself alive too!
Keep believing that a good day will be here soon though I have no idea when.
So I just keep on waiting till that day and be grateful for it.
Ahhhh, I get distracted way too easily.
& I've just lost my train of thoughts.
Perhaps it's time to get some Adderall...hmmm.
I'm really bored right now and I really feel like typing something.
So might as well right?
I know, it's kind of late to start a blog in the middle of June but hey!
Universities starts school in August!
Nothing's ever too late.
Not too sure about posting frequently here but I do need a space.
Like an alone space for me to type my thoughts out instead of spamming them on Twitter.
There's just way too much on Twitter.
I mean, what's the point of me tweeting all the tweets about Justin there?
Not like he's going to read them & even if he really does...
" Nothing is the same anymore " and this time its true.
It has been years since we last met..okay, maybe not met but last talk.
So many years but everything is still so clear like it happened yesterday.
Maybe it's because I think about them VERY frequently.
I keep reminding myself about you, reminding myself how I can't handle relationships.
Keep torturing myself with the thoughts of you hoping that it might change something...
I guess that's kind of useless.
I mean, look at me now.
Where am I?
Still that piece of horrible shit that can't handle any relations or friendship.
That bitch who's jealous about anything and everything.
I'm kind of sick of all these thinking.
Perhaps I should just stop wondering how it'll be like if I just admitted my feelings for you.
Right from the very start.
On a side note, I've always felt like I don't deserve anything in life that's given to me.
( well, it still stands true to a certain extend but...let's just ignore it for the moment? )
Like if I ever have a good week, a horrible one would come soon.
The better the day gets, the more afraid I am.
Cause I know for every action, there will be an equal and opposite reaction.
This Newton's Law is like the core belief of my life.
With that said..
Yes, I do believe in Karma &
No, I don't believe that someone will lead a good life for a long period of time.
So whenever I get very good days, I feel really really blessed but afraid at the same time.
Cause I know having such good days means that the bad ones will be horrible and I can never hide from it.
No matter how much I wish I could avoid it, it'll still come to me.
So nowadays, if I ever get a bad day, I just accept it.
Knowing that once those bad days are over, the good ones will be here.
That's how I keep myself alive too!
Keep believing that a good day will be here soon though I have no idea when.
So I just keep on waiting till that day and be grateful for it.
Ahhhh, I get distracted way too easily.
& I've just lost my train of thoughts.
Perhaps it's time to get some Adderall...hmmm.
